Happy.
After graduating top of my class, I am still on the road to becoming a Registered Dental Hygienist. I take my state board licensing exam next weekend. I’m tired of being a waitress already! I’m a dental hygienist!
It has only been a little more than a couple of months but it feels much longer. Ever since our first date we haven’t gone more than a day without seeing each other. Initially, I thought this was going to be like past the guys I talked to. Something temporary. Nothing serious. Something that’ll eventually end and have me running back to my ex. I was wrong. It turned out to be something more. He’s the first guy since my ex that actually listens and cares about what I have to say. The first to respect the guard I had up. The only one that I can tell all my faults and mistakes without judging. He has that common courtesy and respect that many guys these days lack. He’s a gentlemen. Most importantly he’s been very patient with me.
The topic of us being exclusive came up more than once. I kept telling him I wasn’t ready. After awhile, I questioned myself. Why am not ready? I’m over my ex. I have no intentions of going back to the past. I guess I’m just afraid of opening up. Of giving someone the power to hurt me. I’ve been through way too much to let someone put me through that again. Deep, deep down I know he wouldn’t hurt me. I told him detail to detail about what I’ve gone through. He’s seen the pain on my face during these conversations. I can tell by the look on his face that he would hate for me to feel that way again. He’s a great guy overall. He’s good to everyone. I told myself to quit being stupid and give this great guy a chance. I see him everyday. I talk to him everyday. I can’t go without him. I know this is not just fresh infatuation. I’ve talked to several guys before him so I know I’m blinded by the excitement of getting to know someone new. He’s different.
That’s why after our conversation a few days ago, I decided to let my guard down, let go of the past, and give us a chance. Sure, I’ve been hurt badly in the past but I shouldn’t let it hinder a possible great thing from happening. One thing for sure, it was very strange changing my FB status, haha. This is brand new for both him and I. I’m very happy. Happy indeed.
I know I’ve mentioned this before, but I am so thankful for the wonderful friends that I’ve been blessed with. There are even people that I’m not very close to that genuinely care about my happiness. I read a quote somewhere that says something along the lines of “Few actually care, the rest are just curious.” That’s definitely true. My best friends are the few people that today’s society lack. They are genuinely good and selfless people.
NIGHTNIGHT by DEDDY
